Sunday, June 16, 2013

Treasured Moments

It's that time again. It's been such long while. I wondered if I'd ever experience it again. On a lazy, Sunday afternoon I've finally had the opportunity to savor a treasured moment of peace to decompress mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually.  I did mention that I started a new field trip recently that has been extremely taxing to say the least. My goodness, I have not worked so hard and for so little in so very long. I remind myself of how absolutely thankful I am for the mere opportunity and I choose to not allow my thoughts to wander back to the nine to five. On this fine Sunday afternoon I am finishing this glass of Riesling and sorting out my thoughts, concerns and needs. I am surrendering to the inner torment thats been rumbling beneath the surface of my soul. I am quieting my mind, getting real with some of the things that I have been running away from and acknowledging the issues in my life that need resolution. Have I also mentioned that I am a recovering people pleaser? I still have relapses from time to time where I experience bouts of "shoulds". In my mind I battle with all of the things that I should do or say in my relationships. I tend to work myself into a tizzy from time to time but not today. Today, this very afternoon is a treasured moment.  I am not fighting with myself or the expectations that I have of myself. I am relaxing, turning my brain off or at least turning it down a bit. I am allowing myself space to bless myself. This evening I am reminding myself that all is well. I am releasing my fears, frailties and ongoing flaws into the care of a kind and caring God, at least for today. This is a treasured moment where I realize that all that I am and all that I have is enough. Today I can breathe, inhale this moment and exhale any conditions and expectations.  This afternoon is enough. I've had enough to eat. I've visited with my parents, talked with my son and extended Fathers Day love to my dearest ones. I phoned my father and shared unconditional love with him out of the overflow that my Divine Father has made provisions for.  All thats left is to bathe my mind in uplifting words and phrases that will frame my days ahead. Today has progressed at a slower pace and for this I am thankful.

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