Making Room

Have I mentioned my newfound love for framing? I believe that I have in some form or another. Well I am really, did I say really trying to frame the events in my life in the most divinely inspired way. I've been attempting to make sense of some very hurtful things over the past several months and to current, I've come up with absolutely nothing. A friendship that spanned over a decade has dissolved and I have been in my quiet time on a rollercoaster of emotions. I have been saddened, hurt, disappointed and angered to the utmost by this epic friendship failure. I tell myself that I should simply allow myself to feel what I feel for now. The results of how the friendship ended stares me in the face, a loss of my personal property and that truly angers me to no end. I struggle to be enlightened and spiritual. I struggle to maintain that the divine law of compensation will unfold as it should in this situation. I struggle to know exactly what to do. I want to defend myself, to engage my offender, to give her a piece of my mind but honestly after all I've gone through over these past few years that piece of mind may be all I have left. I am grasping for straws at the most spiritual way to view the situation but I am completely dumbfounded. I am trying to frame this falling out in the most gracious way possible but again I am coming up with absolutely nothing. The person I referred to as a dear friend for years literally keeps my property, my clothing and other belongings in retaliation for something that she believes I've done to her. Thank God I had already secured my shoes Dear God! I am beyond puzzled. Everytime I think of my things that she has either thrown out or simply given away I am livid. What level of crazy would a mature woman, alledgely mature woman of God in the counseling profession of all professions choose to resolve a conflict in such a way? I counsel myself and tell myself that I am perfectly fine with ending the friendship. Parting ways is/was the only way to go forth but I am without my clothes, my clothes! I look to the heavens and I ask and beg for an answer. What have I done or failed to do to deserve this? So, since I have not come up with anything I will work on framing this failure through the eyes of faith. My former friend's behavior is only God's way of making room for more in my life. She has been used as a catalyst to clear out some space for more. Her mentally unstable behavior leaves no room for me to question her removal from my life. She has made room for loving, nonjudgmental, supportive, genuine friends void of an agenda. In fact, her vacancy is making room for me to remember my Friend above all friends and true Confidante. This exit has made room for some much needed alone time and solace. I've gotten more in touch my authentic self and I am trusting my instincts now more than ever. I have always been at peace with the idea of being alone. The range of emotions that I've been experiencing because of the friendship failure has humbled me because I have been forced to look at my judgmental tendencies.  Because this flaw has been brought to the forefront, my spiritual attention to it will definitely make room for more accepting qualities. I anticipate this happening any moment now. I am definitely working on it and expectant. So, I open up my heart and my closet and I position myself to receive all that I've lost in time and pretty little things. Everything is replaceable and every situation is a learning module. The portrait of my life now reframed is looking rather optimistic if I say so myself.