Oh the things that have occurred since I last rambled. Being back home in the safety and plush predictability that is my family home I find myself exhaling and asking myself "what the heck has just happened?" It appears in my self appointed seek and search mission for love I have misplaced at least nine good years of my life. Well rather than cry over the misappropriated time, I sit in the comfort of my parents' home, yes I did say my parents' home, we'll get to that part later darling and survey the damage. Yes, lets have another cup of tea together while I mentally survey the remains of the decisions that I've made that has me here at my parents' home at age forty one. You know I may need something a bit stronger than this chamomille tea afterall. You know what, lets not do it. No I have already recounted my mishaps of love gone wrong, gone South and gone every which way but up why continue with the analyzing? I know what happened, where it happened, with whom it happened and obviously why it happened. No one else cares to know. I can provide entertainment to others at another time and date about the craziness of it all later. What I think I will share is how I feel now about what has happened. The aftermath of my shedding my church girl campaign to get God to bless me led me into a life of twists and turns that I'd never imagined before. I always thought I was creative and imaginative but never could I have come up with some of the things that I experienced. I sit here now very, very comfortable and confident in the lessons I've learned and the strong sense of self that is mine at this very moment and I am so very grateful. A sublime sense of appreciation washes over me because I know that how I feel and the security that experience right now didn't have to be so. There are so many women who failed to make it out of some of the very same circumstances that I found myself in. So here I am sitting in the middle of my cozy bed cleverly looking at my life through a different set of eyes. I am safe, well rested and in bed at this hour when only months ago I was working polling the daily reports at my overnight field trip wishing I was at home in bed. Sitting here in the middle of this comfy king sized bed makes me feel as if I am on my long awaited throne. I've always loved four poster beds that sit high off the floor. I call them my princess and the pea bed. Sort of like the fairytale. As a matter of fact, thats exactly how I feel like a princess awaking from a bad dream, almost like Alice in Wonderland. My relationship woes did not resemble a nightmare at all, more like a bad dream and now I am finally awake. I feel more like myself than I ever have in quite a long time. Things are not perfect, far from it. The adjustment to being back home with my parents has been strange to say the least but settling. I am now in this newfound state of mind choosing to look at things differently, to see the good in all things. I make this choice not to soothe my ego but rather to see divinity in every turn in my life. God allowed every up and down for some reason. Every scene in my story was screened through His consuming love for me. So I would rather view the occurences through His love and the knowledge that everything is as it should be. In the public relations arena when things happen in the life of a celebrity, public official or entity accomodations are made to "spin" the situation in favor of the person or entity's agenda. If the situation was positive its used to promote the person or entity even more and to gain more support from the public. If the situation was a not so pleasant occurence, PR firms or departments go into to full gladiator mode to spin the situation for damage control or to create a completely different different story. In PR perception is everything. Its not about what happened. Its about steering public opinion about what happened. Public relations has always fascinated me. Careers are created, destroyed and resurrected with great PR. When I look at the events of my life I think to myself that a proper PR spin must be instituted immediately. A spin on the occurences of at least nine years has to be launched expeditiously or the longer I wait and ponder, analyze and evaluate every detail of what I did and didn't do I am in danger of living in my past mistakes rather than moving forward and that simply won't do at all. The support that I am seeking to gain is my own. I must rally to gain my mental, emotional, spiritual and physical selves all into alignment with this new PR spin on what has happened and what is about to take place. My PR spin actually has nothing to do with the public at all. It is my "personal revelations" on the ongoing story that is my life. These revelations cause me to see things in a much more favorable light. This is the story that I tell myself. This is press release that has been forwarded to every department. The mental, physical and emotional departments have all received word from the spiritual department concerning a launch event that will premiere a more stable and stronger me. Word has already gone out. Please do not call it a comeback. This new campaign is an actual launching of a new way of living and loving. I think it will do rather well. At this point all departments appear to be onboard. Basically the statement that has been released concerning the past nine years or so reads a bit like this draft, "Terrea has been cheerfully participating in a divine training module that has spanned the course of several years. She has matriculated very well through her training season and is on an excellent path at this time." There has been no failed relationships, no loss, no pain only progress. I prefer this spin. Yes, perched from this beautiful view in my princess bed I'd say it looks magnificent. The press statement is hereby approved and can be released now.
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